I've recently graduated! (again :D) I've earned my Master's degree in Public Relations from University of Greenwich. I'm finally done with studying once and for all, and to be honest I've always thought that this is the point where 'real life' starts. Now that I'm in the middle of the real thing, I realised that when I first started out, I wasn't ready, not really. (then again no one is ever ready to do anything) I didn't know how to deal with the amount of expectation and disappointment that comes after, it was overwhelming. These are mostly job related, I was unemployed for 6 months, and everyone told me to enjoy this time, maybe go travelling, as I won't have as much time to relax once I start working. A part of me disagreed since deep down I'm scared of missing out on a lot of opportunities. I felt like I needed to do something, or at least try and find something, other than doing nothing and watching as time goes by.
In the past I've made this mistake way too many times-and I couldn't help it at the time, because I was struggling with my mental health. (this is actually the first time I ever mention it. Its scary to talk about it online, hence I always keep that bit to myself). I realised now that it was the stupidest thing ever- to let said condition get in the way, and the consequences were worse than I thought. Its difficult when it feels like you're constantly racing against time, but I'm sick and tired of letting time pass me by and missing out on life because of my insecurities. I'm not where I want to be yet, its still a long way to go, but I'm learning to go at my own pace and proceed in my own time. and I think...thats good enough. for now.






On a happier note, I've recently moved back to Singapore! ^_^ at first, it felt a bit odd, maybe a little nostalgic, I'm excited for my new adventure but also very scared at the same time. In the first few days I couldn't really sleep, I was still massively jet-lagged, still trying to reset my body clock. I could only sleep once the sun came up, I talked to my overseas friends all night long since they're the only ones still awake xD
I also decided I would take more classes, continue making YouTube videos, and I definitely need to drink more water and improve my cooking skills lol.
That's it for now! I'll write more soon :) x